Am I sorta a perfectionist? I wonder...

Sometimes, I wonder if I think too much and end up making things sound even more complicated. Or is it because my expectation on things goes beyond the normal level?

I notice that I usually want whatever I do to be near perfect, be it a simple 5-minute presentation, mini sketch or in this case, the latest group assignment regarding programming. I feel terribly frustrated when I fail to make the programme run like how I want it to be. I continuously try to modify the coding, to better the programme, always seeking for ways to make it a good programme. And then, my group mates told me that well, since we are running out of time, we will just submit our latest coding as it is without further modification and that they think it is fine overall, minus a few cons, such as making a user enter a function number twice in order to get to the function menu. 

Due to that, my mood darkens for the day. I dislike submitting something like this for our assignment. No doubt, the whole programme is good in the sense that we satisfy almost all of the required things to be included in our programme, but to me, it is not good enough. I want to further better the programme; I want to get high marks for this assignment. I mean, I look at this programme from a user's point of view. If you are the user, you wouldn't want to enter something twice just to get to the function that you wish for, no? That would be time-consuming; that would be an ineffective programme. Well, the enter-function-twice-thing is just one of the errors (okay, I regard this as an error, to which my group mates feel that it is something that is not really serious and therefore, not much of an error) in our programme; there are a few other things that make me think of the programme as unsatisfactory. Either it's just me, or...well, perhaps it's just me. I have a very high expectation on everything.

I don't know; I give up. I'm tired of this whole coding thing, and in the end, I have to comply with their suggestion of letting it be and submitting the work as it is. Time is running short, and we still couldn't figure out the correction for the programme, so what are we to do but to leave it like this? However, deep in my heart, I feel that if we put our mind to it and aim to correct the mistakes, there is a high chance for us to overcome the errors. 

Oh well, end rant. Most of the time, I prefer to keep my emotions in me and complain inside my diary, but this time, I just feel like pouring out my dissatisfaction here. 

Pardon me; I'm just venting my frustration here. Oh wait...I just realise this post contradicts with my previous post. Ugh. == 

I feel contented...

...with everything for now.

I wonder if it's too early for one to fell satisfied with things at such an age. Usually, most youths are never satisfied in their life: complaints regarding school work, rants about their lack of time for their to-do stuff; basically, they are always grumbling and whining about anything and everything. I have nothing against them for doing so; I mean, aww, come on...I'm sure everyone does that in some points of their life on Earth, including me as well. Except that I have this feeling of contentment in me nowadays, causing me to remain cheerful although I realise I have only about two weeks to complete my stressful Programming assignment...

Perhaps it is because I found myself a new way to stay happy: join a roleplaying site, post in the roleplays involved, lurk around in the site's spam section and 'ban' people at will. Oh boy, I couldn't help smiling at my computer screen when I read those funny comments posted by the members there. All my stressful and worrisome thoughts disappear as though they have never existed in my mind at all; those negative emotions have been replaced by positive and optimistic thoughts and feelings that I have acquired from writing and spamming on the site. Ah, one disadvantage though: I got addicted to it more than my addiction for Facebook. Hmm.

My feelings of satisfaction can never be comprehended by others, unless you have that sort of emotions too. The feelings of contentment, bringing me to look forward to each new day (not when I think about tsunamis and earthquakes and the nuclear meltdown in Japan though...>.<).

So yeah, I feel contented. End of rambling. Period. ( :

 

New year, new semester...but where's the new resolution?

New year resolution...I have none.

Old habits and addictions are forever ongoing, unless I have come to a super strong decision to cease those from continuing and move forward with newfound will of getting important and necessary things done. And I know that I possess little willpower in putting tasks of less importance aside; the more I think of leaving them alone for good, the more my desire to do them grows. I end up abandoning the more important work instead.

Yes, I hereby admit that I'm terrible. Indisciplined. Irrational. Any bad adjective you can think of to describe me. GAH~

I remember telling myself during my second semester break that I would study hard enough to score in my final exam papers in my this third semester studying in UTAR. Sigh, it seemed I do not make any effort at all to do so. I can somehow predict my grades are going to drop drastically this semester, no doubt. I am such a failure bleh~

So here you go; a new year has arrived, a new semester has started but what about new resolution of mine? No, there is never one and there won't be one either. Even if I do have one, it won't survive for even a day before the resolution is crushed under the weight of old habits and die-hard addictions.

*solemn face* Rest in peace, dear new resolution. *beaming face* Welcome, old habits and die-hard addictions!

Merry Christmas everyone...

Though I wonder if it was really a merry one after all.

Christmas is just as normal as any other day to me every year. My family and I don't celebrate Christmas, and we never thought of joining in the celebration. Hence, my first statement.

Another reason is that...my final exam is approaching in two days' time. Instead of enjoying the event, I'm supposed to study hard for it. Well, I should be able to since I'm not celebrating the event but alas! I've got myself involved in something which I shouldn't at the moment: Roleplaying. Gah, wrong timing indeed!

Even as I'm typing this, my eyes are occasionally staring at the roleplaying site. = =

But then, I have not a slightest hint of regret, for I truly enjoy the roleplaying experience there. Not to forget, the roleplayers are funny bunch of people. Gosh, you should check the forum spam area. Reading what they posted seriously make me laugh, giggle, like mad. Also, I find that I am more confidence in my writing now compared to last time. Maybe because I write every day ever since I've joined the sites? o.O

Everything has it's pros and cons; and the setback for joining the roleplaying community is I tend to roleplay to the point of abandoning my revision for the upcoming exam. I know, I know, it's my fault. For being not persistent enough to finish revising but go according to my whim to indulge in roleplays. T.T

Oh well, enough talk. Jonie's brain screamed at her, "GET YOUR BUTT AWAY FROM THAT ROLEPLAYING SITE AND GO STUDY NOW, YOU GREAT REVISION PROCRASTINATOR!"

Aye, Jonie Brain. *eyes still glued to the mentioned site*
XD

A brief summary of Sem 2 life in Utar...

Week 1 Sem 2,Utar...
*relax relax*
Oh new subjects to learn...new friends to be friends with and 1st sem friends to catch up, laugh and joke together...

Week 3 Sem 2,Utar...
 *thinks*
Okay, I guess I can still manage it...

Week 5 Sem 2,Utar...
*panic alarm ringing*
GAH!!! So fast Test 1 already? I've never even started revising!!! HYAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*mutters mutters* SEI KANG LOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (sure die in Cantonese)

Week 7 Sem 2,Utar...
*breathes in, breathes out*
Effective Communication Skills 5-minute-speech individual presentation. Okay. Okay. Okay. I get it. I just need to speak for a few minutes and be done with it. Fine. Fine. Wait. What am I supposed to say again? o.O

Week 9 Sem 2,Utar...(Now)
*half dead and half insane*
Bwa-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha. More tests. Tests results. Practical reports. Effective Comm Skills Sketch group presentation. Loads of unanswered tutorial questions. Way too much information to squeeze into The Brain. Bwa-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha. I'm dead meat.
P.S. Dear Phillip boy, please remember to order a delicately carved tombstone and a nice-fitting coffin (the tombstone preferably in pastel blue colour made of high quality marble) for your beloved mother. Thank you.

Conclusion: I'm now absolutely positive that Time has a pair of wings on its back. That's why Time flies...really fast. Although quite fast-paced, things are still kind to me (except two minor bicycle accidents this semester -.- ). Will I survive at the end of the semester? @@

Fate/Stay Night

Ah,Fate/Stay Night! One of my favourites~

A guy named Emiya Shirou...
...dragged into a Holy Grail War, in which the winner out of seven would have his/her wish granted using the Holy Grail obtained...
...became a Master and had a female Servant called Sabre...
...and had to face other six Masters and their respective Servants by battling each other out...

Emiya Shirou

Well, in the anime, though he had to battle the other Masters and Servants together with Sabre, he had managed to befriend a few Masters through the process - Tohsaka Rin who had Archer as her Servant and Ilyasviel, whose Servant, Berserker was gone after a battle with Rin, Archer, Shirou and Sabre. The anime captured my interest particularly due to the odd storyline in the sense that the historical figure, King Arthur was depicted as a woman, none other than the Servant, Sabre. Another plus point was the creative storyline regarding the war for the Holy Grail, the Masters and Servants ideas. It was something out of the ordinary. Of course, there are other titles that are also as brilliant and interesting as this or even more than it but the whole story is pretty impressive. I've included all the pics of the seven Servants and some of the Masters.

Servant Archer

Servant Assassin

Servant Berserker

Servant Lancer

Ilyasviel

Servant Caster

Gilgamesh

Servant Rider

Tohsaka Rin

Servant Sabre

Matou Sakura

Nyehehe, not to forget the chemistry between Shirou and his Servant, Sabre...and there was even someone who opposed their love, Gilgamesh, someone whom I haven't fully understood whether he is a Servant or just another epic hero that exists for whatever reason it is. Just like any other animes, the ending is always as disappointing as ever, although they were supposed to be "all's well, happy and satisfied" ending. Gah, why can't they let destined couples to be together happily ever after? Why must the ending be "we love each other, but we can't be together, so we shall leave it as it is, forever loving and remembering you in the heart"????? ARGHH!!! This is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO frustrating!!!!!!!!

Hmm, overall, the show is quite a good one. Except...the ending of course. *sulks away*

P.S. Oh yes, forgot something. Matou Sakura was one of the seven Masters with her Servant Rider in the manga, but here in the anime, Rider's Master was her brother, Matou Shinji. Talking about Sakura, she had a great crush on Shirou but anyways, I still prefer Sabre over her to be together with Shirou. Gosh, I just realised...what's wrong with the names starting from S??? Sakura, Shirou, Sabre??? Gah! *poofs away*

.....

It always takes me ages to come up with a simple and suitable title for my posts. -.-

Well well, I wonder if I need to be involved in at least an accident for every new study semester. Last semester, I had an issue with my bicycle, causing me to fall at the roundabout near the Utar Eastgate. This semester, I got hit by an oncoming bicycle on the bicycle pathway when I was getting back from the campus. Thank goodness I wasn't hurt badly, only two minor cuts on my left wrists and a minor bruise on my fourth finger. My bicycle did suffer a little from the little accident though, its basket deformed at the side due to impact and my bicycle's front, the part supporting the handles was totally turned at an angle of 45 degrees. And guess what? I had to cycle with that 45-degree handle all the way home. I should have snapped a picture of the bicycle's condition... So unlucky of me~

Fine, forget about it. That only spoils people's mood eh? I shall talk about baking then! Seriously, I don't know what has gotten into my brain. Not only I have Procrastinovirus, other types of virus are starting to attack me too. I just simply had to bake something every week, be it muffins or biscuits. Now, I'm thinking of baking a cake... : )

Recently had my test 1. Preparing for my Effective Communication Skills assignment, where I have to write an outline and present a 5-min speech on a topic I choose. Had a hard time thinking of what I should talk about, considering that the choice of topics is too wide. Finally settled down on Manners. What a boring and serious sounding topic right? Hmm.

*suddenly mumbles* Maybe I should bake a cake tomorrow...

Time to sleep. Lights out. Nights~ *zzzzz*