Restless.

The night's quiet and peaceful, yet I can't help feeling somewhat restless inside. Maybe it's because the night is void of lively activities to keep the mind away from slipping into boredom and loneliness. What is there to do? There's studies for finals, listening to music, watching videos, gaming, reading, chatting...but hmm, all those don't seem to be able to subdue the restlessness. I've been studying almost the whole day (ineffective revision though heh <.<), listening to some favourite songs with repeat mode on, watching Tangled the movie and crying at parts that touched my heart, gaming with a friend on LoL only for an AI game...but all that could only do that much to keep me entertained temporarily. Don't feel like picking up a book to read for now, nor doing any writing. Chatting does wonders, except the person I want to chat with isn't around. : /

Sigh, maybe I should just wish the world goodnight now.

*wishes a silent goodnight*

I wish.

The longings, the pain.

The heavy feelings inside.

Sometimes in life, you just wish that things could be simpler. You just wish that whatever you wish for would happen for real, right now. But life isn't a fairytale or a fantasy world where magical things happen; you don't simply get what you wish for. You have to either work hard to make that wish come true, or just continue wishing for all you care. That's reality; that's life.

Yet...

I wish.

I just wish.

I keep wishing...

...because it helps me pass the time. It allows me to think of the things I want to do, all the pleasant stuff, the nice moments, which could turn into great memories to be cherished later. I want to work to make it come true, but circumstances do not allow me to do so...for now. All I could do now is to wish and wait.

Wish and wait...

...and wish and wait.

And wait, I will. I will wait.

Just feeling like writing part of whatever that's inside me here, to express how I feel a bit. But I know it takes time for that heavy feelings to move on..

A-Z Questions: Me

Happened to go through a friend's Note on FB, and felt like doing the same thing as well, answering these questions. Except I prefer doing them here then on FB, since my FB Notes are solely for creative (but not exactly creative) writing purposes. Heh. 

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A – Accidents

01. Have you ever been in a car accident?  

No.

02. Do you have a lot of scars?

Not really, just a few from bicycle accidents.

03. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone?

If you consider hitting my younger brother as a fist fight, then yes I suppose. Other than that, no.

04. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake?  

Not sure, can't remember if I did.

05. Have you ever had stitches? Where?  

No.

B – Beauty

06. Do you consider yourself beautiful?  

No.

07. Are you self conscious of how you look?  

Somewhat, but only when I'm bored.

08. Do you put on a lot of makeup?

I don't use makeup for the time being.

09. Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery?  

Never.

10. What do you think makes a person beautiful?

The goods I see in the person's true personality.

C – Consequences

11. What was the longest amount of time you’ve been grounded for?  

Being grounded's never in my dictionary.

12. What would you do if you got pregnant, keep it or have an abortion?  

o.o If it comes to that, I'll keep it for sure.

13. Do you ever think about how your actions affect other people?

Most of the time. But sometimes I tend to forget and...hmm.

14. What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you?  

Having this guilty feeling of the mistakes I did.

15. What is one thing you wish you didn’t do, just because it wasn’t worth it in the end?

Being all emo and worrisome for nothing.

D – Dealing

16. When you are mad at someone, how do you show them?  

Depends. I get into a short debate with family members then calm myself down by keeping quiet. Sometimes, I can get angry to the point of crying. If it's friends, I don't usually show it outright; more of grumbling and writing my feelings furiously in my diary.

17. Name a time when you had to be strong.  

The feeling of being absolutely helpless yet having to continue life as it is.

18. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting? Any kind of abuse at home?  

Parents fighting yes. But that was a very long time ago...let bygones be bygones.

19. When people at school don’t accept you, or have problems with you, how do you react?  

I usually try to find out the reason so that I can improve myself from there, but these days, it doesn't matter anymore.

20. Have you ever lost someone to death? Explain how you got through it.  

Yes, and I think most people do. Felt sad and sort of regretted not being able to talk to her more, but hmm, it's already over anyway.  

E – Experience

21. Have you ever had a job? Any volunteer jobs?  

Had a part-time job though. Nope.

22. Do you think that you are sexually experienced, or not at all?  

Not at all.

23. Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far?  

I would say life's been okay, not exactly easy yet not really difficult.  

24. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)?  

I don't think so.

25. How old do you act?  

Erm, depends on my mood I suppose. I can be all mature when I see fit, or just acting childish and plain crazy.

F – Family

26. Is there anyone in your family you don’t talk to? Why?

Nope. Unless you consider my extended family...

27. If you had to choose, family or friends?

Family comes first.

28. Can you tell your parents or one of your parents anything?  

I discuss my obvious problems with them, but when it comes to emotions...no.

29. Do you have any siblings? If so, do you ever get jealous of them?

Yes. Nope.

30. How often do you spend ‘quality time’ with family members?

As often as I can, when the time feels right and everyone isn't busy with their own work.

G – Growing

31. How tall are you? How tall do you wish you were?  

Roughly 157cm. Nah, I think my height's fine.

32. Do you think that you have grown more in the past year than any year before that?  

I don't even care? o.o

33. As a person, do you think you are mature for your age or still act childish?  

Mature when need be, childish when the time feels right.

34. Are you scared to think that one day you will turn 30, then 40, then 50?  

I don't think about that anyway. Lol.

35. Do you believe you still have a lot to learn?

Yes, like, YES.

H – Hope

36. Love – real or not?

Real. You can't see it, but you can feel it, as quoted from the movie "A Walk to Remember".

37. Are you a pessimist or an optimist?

I'd like to think that I'm an optimist though. 

38. Do you believe in fate, that everything happens for a reason, or do you think that our actions lead the way?

Our actions lead the way most of the time, although I do believe that there are certain things in life that are not under our control. Err...half-half I suppose?

39. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive?  

Yes.

40. What gives you hope when you just feel like dying?  

I don't know. Usually, something would come up and give me just enough motivation to continue.

I – Issues

41. Do you suffer from depression or constant sadness/loneliness?

I get sad and lonely sometimes.

42. Do you have any type of disease or disability?

Nope.

43. Are you currently in a hard relationship or have bad luck with the opposite sex?

No. 

44. Do you think that you are alone in this world?

I may think of myself as a loner, but no, I'm not alone in this world.

45. How often do you think about death, suicide or running away?

Seldom. Even if I do think of them, my thoughts usually get side-tracked onto something else.

J – Jokes

46. Say a word or phrase that would not be funny to anyone but you & one of your friends (an inside joke)

Can't think of one right now. What..."Teemo's passive is Global Taunt"? o.o

47. Are you usually the one who makes people laugh,Or the other way around?

The other way round, since I prefer entertaining others with my laughter.

48. Do you cry when you laugh hard?  

Depends on what I'm laughing about heh... 

49. Write down a hilarious moment you had with someone that makes you laugh to this day!  

Ahaha, a lot I guess. I can't decide one to write down...maybe I shall leave this out bleh~

50. Do you ever get in trouble for laughing or talking a lot during class?

That was during my primary school years, lol. 

K – Knowledge

51. The purpose of school: to learn, to cause trouble or to hang out with friends?  

To learn, except I don't know if I'm really learning.

52. Do people refer to you as smart, dumb, or average?  

Some say smart, but I'd like to think of myself as average. Or maybe dumb. I don't know.

53. What was the highest grade you have received (full course mark) ever?  

A+

54. What was your last average? This year would you like to maintain it or aim higher?  

My recent semester's CGPA you mean? Hmm, 3.2. I would like to get higher than that of course but...

55. What do you find the most interesting subject to be (to study or to talk about)?

Emotions-based topics.

L – Love

56. Are you currently in love? If not, have you been before?

Nope.

57. Do people around you show you a lot of love (tell you they love you, hug you, kiss you, etc.)?  

Not really.

58. Is love worth it?  

I think it's worth it.

59. Do you hate it when young teenagers say they ‘love’ someone that they’ve been dating for a few months?  

Huh, why the hate? I'd like to think that it's sweet though...if they really mean it of course.

60. Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone, or is it just a word?

It takes courage to say that for me, but I guess when you are in love, love itself gives you more than just courage to express yourself.

M – Money

61. Do you believe that money makes the world go round?

I don't know...

62. Is your family on the poor side, average, or above average when it comes to money?

Poor.

63. Are you saving up for college/university, or planning to?  

Nope. I don't have the privilege to save up anyway...

64. Would you rather win millions of dollars & be set for life, or find the perfect person to marry & start a family with?

Find the perfect person to marry and start a family with would be nice. 

65. On a scale of 1-10, how important is money to you?  

7.

N – Naughty

66. Are you a virgin?

Yes.

67. What do you think about doing sexual things with someone you’re not going out with?

Erk wut? I don't do this.

68. Do you know anybody you consider a ’slut’? What makes you say that?  

I don't know, and I don't care anyway.

69. If you could, would you erase some things you did in the past or make it so you did more?

I don't know.

70. Do you consider yourself more nice or more naughty? You can’t say both!

I'm nice...I think.

O – Openness

71. How long does it take for you to open up to someone?  

Depends. If I find myself able to connect to the person, then it doesn't take very long for me to open up to the person. A weakness, I would say.

72. What does it take for you to fully trust someone?

The highest I would trust a person is only up to 97%, never a 100% (except my family members).

73. Are you generally untrusting towards people because of past experiences, or any other reason?

Generally untrusting, maybe because I've yet to find people who prove they are trustworthy enough to get a 100% trust from me.

74. When are you comfortable with someone sexually?

Not sure. When I'm married I suppose...

75. When it comes to parents and close friends, what’s the limit of what you can tell them?

Depends on the matter at hand. 

P – Positive

76. Have you ever had an experience with someone that didn’t necessarily end positively? If so, would you rather erase the memory of that person because of the sad times or keep the memory of that person because of the good times?

Erm, I don't know. I can't remember. I guess I'll just leave them to dust at a corner. 

77. Do you agree with the saying: better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all?

Neutral.

78. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? What do you try to be?  

Optimistic. I don't know...right now, I'm just trying to be a person I'm expected to be.

79. Do you agree that something good can come out of everything?

I don't know.

80. Have you ever had a time where something really bad happened, but something really good happened because of it? If so, please explain what it was:  

Can't remember.

Q – Questions

81. When faced with a problem, do you ask for help or try to figure it out yourself?

I try to figure it out myself first.

82. Do you often question the world and how we came about? What are some things you would like to know about creation?

Sometimes, when I am in my world of thoughts. I guess there's a lot of stuff I would like to know, but right now, I can't seem to name one.

83. Do you think the government is truthful? If you could ask the president one question, what would it be?

Nah. Err...I need time to think of the question leh...

84. When someone does something wrong to you, do you confront them and ask them why they did it or just let it go?

I'll think of the possible reasons for their doings. I might ask, or just let it go, depending on who the person is.

85. What is one unsolved mystery about the world that you want answers to?

Can't think of one right now.

R – Respect

86. How do you show respect?  

I always give others a smile, sometimes a slight bow, as a sign that I respect them. Action-wise, if I treat the person good, it means I have respect for that person.

87. What can someone do for you to lose all respect for them?  

Being rude, doing immoral stuff...there may be more but I can't seem to remember hmm...

88. Do you respect your teachers, parents, and other authority figures?

Yes.

89. When you are disrespectful to your parents, what is the punishment?  

My guilt is the one that punishes me.

90. If someone is mean to you, are you mean back or do you kill them with kindness?  

I tend to ignore the person most of the time. 

S – School

91. If you are still in school, what grade will you be going into?  

Gonna enter my second year in uni soon.

92. When will you graduate high school/college?  

Two years more.

3. After high school, what did you do/are you planning to do?

I rotted at home, helping out with household chores.

94. Do you like or hate school? What do you like/hate about it?

Neither like nor hate. School seems to be an interesting place, yet somehow it feels like an obligation to attend it.

95. Have you ever been suspended, expelled, or dropped out of school?

Never.

T – Temptation

96. Have you ever done something wrong, knowing it was wrong, because something inside of you said it was okay?

Yes. And I can say I regret it.

97. Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Did you do it?

Nope.

98. Did you ever cheat on someone? Why did you do it?

Nope.

99. Did you ever want to do something sexual with someone you didn’t really know or love? What did you end up doing?  

I don't know. Most of the time, I only think and leave it as it is.

100. Do you give in to temptation easily, or are you more independent and strong willed?

I give in to temptation easily, only being independent and strong willed when situations demand them of me.

U – Unique

102. Do you do a lot of things because your friends are doing it?  

Sometimes yes. I'm one who's easily influenced by others.

103. Do you follow trends, wear whatever you want, or wear really unique pieces?

I don't follow trends. I just wear whatever I have.

104. Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Do you do things such as smoke, drink, or have casual sex?

Don't think so. And no.

105. What makes you different from people your age?

I don't know. 

V – Value

106. What’s the most expensive thing in your room?

Lappie.

107. What’s more valuable: your life or the lives of your loved ones? Would you sacrifice your life for other people?

Lives of loved ones. Yes, if it comes to that.

108. What is something you value not because it cost a lot, but because it means a lot to you?

I don't know. Maybe...other people's smiles and laughters when I humour them with my blurness and stuff? 

109. If there was a fire in your house/apartment, what is the first thing you would grab?

I think I go blank first. Bad answer, I know. 

110. Do you think past memories and experiences are more valuable than what could possibly happen in the future?

Yes. Because they have happened, whether you like it or not, and they are always there for you to cherish, learn and appreciate.

W – Wishes

111. If you had three wishes, what would they be?

To rid world of extreme evil, to let everyone find their much sought peace, good health and happiness, and...can I wish that I could have another three more wishes for personal purposes? <.<

112. Would you rather wish yourself to be happy, or your loved ones?

Myself though >.<

113. Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe in them?

I don't know. 

114. Have you ever had a wish come true? If so, what was that wish?

Yes I suppose. I wished that I could pass my national exams with flying colours and I did. Is that counted?

115. Do you find wishing for things a waste of time because everything that’s meant to happen, will happen?

I don't know...but still, wishing for things seems interesting so I'll still do it.

Y – You

121. Are you more independent or social?

I would say both.

122. What is something that makes you very mad when you see it?

Litterbugs.

123. Do you think that you have potential to do great things?

Yes.

124. Do you think people are born a certain way, or develop their personalities based on what they go through in life?

The second choice.

125. Do you think people are generally good ?

Yes. However, external influences tend to turn them from good to bad.

Z – Zest

126. Are you currently happy with your life? Why or why not?

Not really. I'm just feeling...unmotivated.

127. Anything big coming up?

No.

128. When change occurs, do you get scared or are you excited for it?

Scared, as I begin to realise I don't really like changes.

129. Do you like to try new things, meet new people?

Yes, if I'm given the chance.

130. What is the most motivational thing in the world?

I don't know (the last "I-don't-know" lol). My thoughts and imaginations, I suppose.

Mood: Slightly disappointed. Sigh.

Cause: Have to forgo a dance event, which I have been looking forward to it after practising the dance moves for about two weeks. Sigh.

Root of problem:  Having a partial clavicle fracture at my left shoulder due to a bicycle accident on Tuesday afternoon, 5 July. Sigh.

Actions to better the mood: Not much. Just trying to stay cool and calm about my withdrawal from the event but...sigh.

Positivity: Moderate. Trying to retain my cheerfulness at all times. Sigh.

I'm actually excited to be able to participate in that event but now...all my hopes are being thrown aside. Right now, I can only watch as my partner dances with another, which reminds me of my condition. Sigh, disappointed.

Am I sorta a perfectionist? I wonder...

Sometimes, I wonder if I think too much and end up making things sound even more complicated. Or is it because my expectation on things goes beyond the normal level?

I notice that I usually want whatever I do to be near perfect, be it a simple 5-minute presentation, mini sketch or in this case, the latest group assignment regarding programming. I feel terribly frustrated when I fail to make the programme run like how I want it to be. I continuously try to modify the coding, to better the programme, always seeking for ways to make it a good programme. And then, my group mates told me that well, since we are running out of time, we will just submit our latest coding as it is without further modification and that they think it is fine overall, minus a few cons, such as making a user enter a function number twice in order to get to the function menu. 

Due to that, my mood darkens for the day. I dislike submitting something like this for our assignment. No doubt, the whole programme is good in the sense that we satisfy almost all of the required things to be included in our programme, but to me, it is not good enough. I want to further better the programme; I want to get high marks for this assignment. I mean, I look at this programme from a user's point of view. If you are the user, you wouldn't want to enter something twice just to get to the function that you wish for, no? That would be time-consuming; that would be an ineffective programme. Well, the enter-function-twice-thing is just one of the errors (okay, I regard this as an error, to which my group mates feel that it is something that is not really serious and therefore, not much of an error) in our programme; there are a few other things that make me think of the programme as unsatisfactory. Either it's just me, or...well, perhaps it's just me. I have a very high expectation on everything.

I don't know; I give up. I'm tired of this whole coding thing, and in the end, I have to comply with their suggestion of letting it be and submitting the work as it is. Time is running short, and we still couldn't figure out the correction for the programme, so what are we to do but to leave it like this? However, deep in my heart, I feel that if we put our mind to it and aim to correct the mistakes, there is a high chance for us to overcome the errors. 

Oh well, end rant. Most of the time, I prefer to keep my emotions in me and complain inside my diary, but this time, I just feel like pouring out my dissatisfaction here. 

Pardon me; I'm just venting my frustration here. Oh wait...I just realise this post contradicts with my previous post. Ugh. == 

I feel contented...

...with everything for now.

I wonder if it's too early for one to fell satisfied with things at such an age. Usually, most youths are never satisfied in their life: complaints regarding school work, rants about their lack of time for their to-do stuff; basically, they are always grumbling and whining about anything and everything. I have nothing against them for doing so; I mean, aww, come on...I'm sure everyone does that in some points of their life on Earth, including me as well. Except that I have this feeling of contentment in me nowadays, causing me to remain cheerful although I realise I have only about two weeks to complete my stressful Programming assignment...

Perhaps it is because I found myself a new way to stay happy: join a roleplaying site, post in the roleplays involved, lurk around in the site's spam section and 'ban' people at will. Oh boy, I couldn't help smiling at my computer screen when I read those funny comments posted by the members there. All my stressful and worrisome thoughts disappear as though they have never existed in my mind at all; those negative emotions have been replaced by positive and optimistic thoughts and feelings that I have acquired from writing and spamming on the site. Ah, one disadvantage though: I got addicted to it more than my addiction for Facebook. Hmm.

My feelings of satisfaction can never be comprehended by others, unless you have that sort of emotions too. The feelings of contentment, bringing me to look forward to each new day (not when I think about tsunamis and earthquakes and the nuclear meltdown in Japan though...>.<).

So yeah, I feel contented. End of rambling. Period. ( :

 

New year, new semester...but where's the new resolution?

New year resolution...I have none.

Old habits and addictions are forever ongoing, unless I have come to a super strong decision to cease those from continuing and move forward with newfound will of getting important and necessary things done. And I know that I possess little willpower in putting tasks of less importance aside; the more I think of leaving them alone for good, the more my desire to do them grows. I end up abandoning the more important work instead.

Yes, I hereby admit that I'm terrible. Indisciplined. Irrational. Any bad adjective you can think of to describe me. GAH~

I remember telling myself during my second semester break that I would study hard enough to score in my final exam papers in my this third semester studying in UTAR. Sigh, it seemed I do not make any effort at all to do so. I can somehow predict my grades are going to drop drastically this semester, no doubt. I am such a failure bleh~

So here you go; a new year has arrived, a new semester has started but what about new resolution of mine? No, there is never one and there won't be one either. Even if I do have one, it won't survive for even a day before the resolution is crushed under the weight of old habits and die-hard addictions.

*solemn face* Rest in peace, dear new resolution. *beaming face* Welcome, old habits and die-hard addictions!

Merry Christmas everyone...

Though I wonder if it was really a merry one after all.

Christmas is just as normal as any other day to me every year. My family and I don't celebrate Christmas, and we never thought of joining in the celebration. Hence, my first statement.

Another reason is that...my final exam is approaching in two days' time. Instead of enjoying the event, I'm supposed to study hard for it. Well, I should be able to since I'm not celebrating the event but alas! I've got myself involved in something which I shouldn't at the moment: Roleplaying. Gah, wrong timing indeed!

Even as I'm typing this, my eyes are occasionally staring at the roleplaying site. = =

But then, I have not a slightest hint of regret, for I truly enjoy the roleplaying experience there. Not to forget, the roleplayers are funny bunch of people. Gosh, you should check the forum spam area. Reading what they posted seriously make me laugh, giggle, like mad. Also, I find that I am more confidence in my writing now compared to last time. Maybe because I write every day ever since I've joined the sites? o.O

Everything has it's pros and cons; and the setback for joining the roleplaying community is I tend to roleplay to the point of abandoning my revision for the upcoming exam. I know, I know, it's my fault. For being not persistent enough to finish revising but go according to my whim to indulge in roleplays. T.T

Oh well, enough talk. Jonie's brain screamed at her, "GET YOUR BUTT AWAY FROM THAT ROLEPLAYING SITE AND GO STUDY NOW, YOU GREAT REVISION PROCRASTINATOR!"

Aye, Jonie Brain. *eyes still glued to the mentioned site*
XD

A brief summary of Sem 2 life in Utar...

Week 1 Sem 2,Utar...
*relax relax*
Oh new subjects to learn...new friends to be friends with and 1st sem friends to catch up, laugh and joke together...

Week 3 Sem 2,Utar...
 *thinks*
Okay, I guess I can still manage it...

Week 5 Sem 2,Utar...
*panic alarm ringing*
GAH!!! So fast Test 1 already? I've never even started revising!!! HYAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*mutters mutters* SEI KANG LOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (sure die in Cantonese)

Week 7 Sem 2,Utar...
*breathes in, breathes out*
Effective Communication Skills 5-minute-speech individual presentation. Okay. Okay. Okay. I get it. I just need to speak for a few minutes and be done with it. Fine. Fine. Wait. What am I supposed to say again? o.O

Week 9 Sem 2,Utar...(Now)
*half dead and half insane*
Bwa-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha. More tests. Tests results. Practical reports. Effective Comm Skills Sketch group presentation. Loads of unanswered tutorial questions. Way too much information to squeeze into The Brain. Bwa-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha. I'm dead meat.
P.S. Dear Phillip boy, please remember to order a delicately carved tombstone and a nice-fitting coffin (the tombstone preferably in pastel blue colour made of high quality marble) for your beloved mother. Thank you.

Conclusion: I'm now absolutely positive that Time has a pair of wings on its back. That's why Time flies...really fast. Although quite fast-paced, things are still kind to me (except two minor bicycle accidents this semester -.- ). Will I survive at the end of the semester? @@

Fate/Stay Night

Ah,Fate/Stay Night! One of my favourites~

A guy named Emiya Shirou...
...dragged into a Holy Grail War, in which the winner out of seven would have his/her wish granted using the Holy Grail obtained...
...became a Master and had a female Servant called Sabre...
...and had to face other six Masters and their respective Servants by battling each other out...

Emiya Shirou

Well, in the anime, though he had to battle the other Masters and Servants together with Sabre, he had managed to befriend a few Masters through the process - Tohsaka Rin who had Archer as her Servant and Ilyasviel, whose Servant, Berserker was gone after a battle with Rin, Archer, Shirou and Sabre. The anime captured my interest particularly due to the odd storyline in the sense that the historical figure, King Arthur was depicted as a woman, none other than the Servant, Sabre. Another plus point was the creative storyline regarding the war for the Holy Grail, the Masters and Servants ideas. It was something out of the ordinary. Of course, there are other titles that are also as brilliant and interesting as this or even more than it but the whole story is pretty impressive. I've included all the pics of the seven Servants and some of the Masters.

Servant Archer

Servant Assassin

Servant Berserker

Servant Lancer

Ilyasviel

Servant Caster

Gilgamesh

Servant Rider

Tohsaka Rin

Servant Sabre

Matou Sakura

Nyehehe, not to forget the chemistry between Shirou and his Servant, Sabre...and there was even someone who opposed their love, Gilgamesh, someone whom I haven't fully understood whether he is a Servant or just another epic hero that exists for whatever reason it is. Just like any other animes, the ending is always as disappointing as ever, although they were supposed to be "all's well, happy and satisfied" ending. Gah, why can't they let destined couples to be together happily ever after? Why must the ending be "we love each other, but we can't be together, so we shall leave it as it is, forever loving and remembering you in the heart"????? ARGHH!!! This is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO frustrating!!!!!!!!

Hmm, overall, the show is quite a good one. Except...the ending of course. *sulks away*

P.S. Oh yes, forgot something. Matou Sakura was one of the seven Masters with her Servant Rider in the manga, but here in the anime, Rider's Master was her brother, Matou Shinji. Talking about Sakura, she had a great crush on Shirou but anyways, I still prefer Sabre over her to be together with Shirou. Gosh, I just realised...what's wrong with the names starting from S??? Sakura, Shirou, Sabre??? Gah! *poofs away*