I feel contented...

...with everything for now.

I wonder if it's too early for one to fell satisfied with things at such an age. Usually, most youths are never satisfied in their life: complaints regarding school work, rants about their lack of time for their to-do stuff; basically, they are always grumbling and whining about anything and everything. I have nothing against them for doing so; I mean, aww, come on...I'm sure everyone does that in some points of their life on Earth, including me as well. Except that I have this feeling of contentment in me nowadays, causing me to remain cheerful although I realise I have only about two weeks to complete my stressful Programming assignment...

Perhaps it is because I found myself a new way to stay happy: join a roleplaying site, post in the roleplays involved, lurk around in the site's spam section and 'ban' people at will. Oh boy, I couldn't help smiling at my computer screen when I read those funny comments posted by the members there. All my stressful and worrisome thoughts disappear as though they have never existed in my mind at all; those negative emotions have been replaced by positive and optimistic thoughts and feelings that I have acquired from writing and spamming on the site. Ah, one disadvantage though: I got addicted to it more than my addiction for Facebook. Hmm.

My feelings of satisfaction can never be comprehended by others, unless you have that sort of emotions too. The feelings of contentment, bringing me to look forward to each new day (not when I think about tsunamis and earthquakes and the nuclear meltdown in Japan though...>.<).

So yeah, I feel contented. End of rambling. Period. ( :

 

Merry Christmas everyone...

Though I wonder if it was really a merry one after all.

Christmas is just as normal as any other day to me every year. My family and I don't celebrate Christmas, and we never thought of joining in the celebration. Hence, my first statement.

Another reason is that...my final exam is approaching in two days' time. Instead of enjoying the event, I'm supposed to study hard for it. Well, I should be able to since I'm not celebrating the event but alas! I've got myself involved in something which I shouldn't at the moment: Roleplaying. Gah, wrong timing indeed!

Even as I'm typing this, my eyes are occasionally staring at the roleplaying site. = =

But then, I have not a slightest hint of regret, for I truly enjoy the roleplaying experience there. Not to forget, the roleplayers are funny bunch of people. Gosh, you should check the forum spam area. Reading what they posted seriously make me laugh, giggle, like mad. Also, I find that I am more confidence in my writing now compared to last time. Maybe because I write every day ever since I've joined the sites? o.O

Everything has it's pros and cons; and the setback for joining the roleplaying community is I tend to roleplay to the point of abandoning my revision for the upcoming exam. I know, I know, it's my fault. For being not persistent enough to finish revising but go according to my whim to indulge in roleplays. T.T

Oh well, enough talk. Jonie's brain screamed at her, "GET YOUR BUTT AWAY FROM THAT ROLEPLAYING SITE AND GO STUDY NOW, YOU GREAT REVISION PROCRASTINATOR!"

Aye, Jonie Brain. *eyes still glued to the mentioned site*
XD

I need inspiration,ideas!

I had wanted to post something here for quite some time but decided not to cos' it's more to do with personal feelings and all that.Not so suitable for a place which is kinda private yet public,meaning here.

Currently having my final exam and will be back in Penang in no time!Hooray!Considering that I've been stuck in Kampar for about three months without anything interesting to do,anyone of the same frequency to talk to (except Xing Yii),anywhere interesting to go,ugh.Quite boring in fact.If this condition persists,I think my brain will retreat into the world of endless fantasies and imagination,which is happening now as I'm typing this post.Feeling dreamy~

I was browsing the Net when I stumbled upon a site which has got to do with writing stories.Cavewriters.com it's called.I find the website pretty compared to other similar sites,though it has those primitive looking designs,overall it gives a very sophisticated profesional look.Good job for the webpage design.Became a member there and actually can't wait to contribute a short story there.Unfortunately,eversince I've left for Kampar,I never had the opportunity to continue my writing.Busy with assignments,tests,experiments,etc etc...If I were to write,I would just hold my pencil and just let it hover above the blank papers,in the end producing nothing out.

Oh how I envy those people who are capable in a lot of things!I have a friend who can actually cooks well,writes well,active in outdoor activities,presents well,thinks critically from every single aspects,and there may be more hidden talents I have yet to know of.How I wish that I could be just like my friend!The more I admire the abilities of those capable lot,the more I feel so incompetent compared to them.Take for example,my writing.I can never write as well as them which is actually disappointing to me,considering that I love writing and even do consider making writing as one of my future careers.I'm starting to feel a little useless here...

I need inspiration,ideas,argh!

P.S.I haven't started revising Physical Chemistry yet and Monday's my exam.Great.