Cause: Have to forgo a dance event, which I have been looking forward to it after practising the dance moves for about two weeks. Sigh.
Root of problem: Having a partial clavicle fracture at my left shoulder due to a bicycle accident on Tuesday afternoon, 5 July. Sigh.
Actions to better the mood: Not much. Just trying to stay cool and calm about my withdrawal from the event but...sigh.
Positivity: Moderate. Trying to retain my cheerfulness at all times. Sigh.
I'm actually excited to be able to participate in that event but now...all my hopes are being thrown aside. Right now, I can only watch as my partner dances with another, which reminds me of my condition. Sigh, disappointed.
Wednesday, July 06, 2011
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Degree Life...
...ain't the same any more.
I feel pressured, worried that I can't cope with my studies. I know that I need to change my study style, meaning, revising every day, that kind of thing. Consistent revision, to be precise. More than often, I fail to do that. Typical of me though. >.>
Oh well, I shall not talk further about such depressing stuff. Even I myself feel depressed writing this out so...I wouldn't want to make my readers feel the same, eh? (:
Moving on...oh yes, I made lots of new friends! Somehow, this semester seems to be a get-to-know-more-people period. People whom I've never thought of making friends with, seniors of the same course as I'm in...it was truly a great chance for me to be able to befriend them. It was all thanks to the recent UTAR Kampar's May 2011 Intake Orientation Programme organised by Registration, Campus Tour, Mass Call (RCM), a student body that was in charge of the event. I volunteered as a helper for the programme and because of that, I met a bunch of nice friends. We are like one big family, up till now...(: I felt glad that I became a helper for the orientation programme; the few sacrificed days of my break was really worthwhile after all! ^^
I'm starting to get into more activities this semester. Participated in a Gotong-royong Project and made new friends again, volunteered to become a helper for another event called Waltz, With Love 2011, delivered a speech on general safety at the Speaker's Corner in conjunction with a Safety Campaign in campus (well, I wouldn't have gone for this if not for the 10 soft skill points that I get to earn speaking for at least 15 minutes lol~)...there might be more to come. I actually love joining activities and getting myself active in these...perhaps I like helping out and socialising with people heh.
Gonna end the entry here, lest I ramble like an old grandmother. Wait...I guess I already sound like one. *coughs* >.>
P.S. Felt like showing the world my photo editing skills lol...here you go, two pics done by me through picture editing online. Not trying to brag here, but I like the results. (:
I feel pressured, worried that I can't cope with my studies. I know that I need to change my study style, meaning, revising every day, that kind of thing. Consistent revision, to be precise. More than often, I fail to do that. Typical of me though. >.>
Oh well, I shall not talk further about such depressing stuff. Even I myself feel depressed writing this out so...I wouldn't want to make my readers feel the same, eh? (:
Moving on...oh yes, I made lots of new friends! Somehow, this semester seems to be a get-to-know-more-people period. People whom I've never thought of making friends with, seniors of the same course as I'm in...it was truly a great chance for me to be able to befriend them. It was all thanks to the recent UTAR Kampar's May 2011 Intake Orientation Programme organised by Registration, Campus Tour, Mass Call (RCM), a student body that was in charge of the event. I volunteered as a helper for the programme and because of that, I met a bunch of nice friends. We are like one big family, up till now...(: I felt glad that I became a helper for the orientation programme; the few sacrificed days of my break was really worthwhile after all! ^^
I'm starting to get into more activities this semester. Participated in a Gotong-royong Project and made new friends again, volunteered to become a helper for another event called Waltz, With Love 2011, delivered a speech on general safety at the Speaker's Corner in conjunction with a Safety Campaign in campus (well, I wouldn't have gone for this if not for the 10 soft skill points that I get to earn speaking for at least 15 minutes lol~)...there might be more to come. I actually love joining activities and getting myself active in these...perhaps I like helping out and socialising with people heh.
Gonna end the entry here, lest I ramble like an old grandmother. Wait...I guess I already sound like one. *coughs* >.>
P.S. Felt like showing the world my photo editing skills lol...here you go, two pics done by me through picture editing online. Not trying to brag here, but I like the results. (:
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Tuesday, April 05, 2011
MUET Speaking Test
Ugh..I wonder if I did well for my test.
I was with three other members in the same group, one whom I have known earlier from another friend of mine. The other two were new acquaintances; we just greeted each other good-naturedly during our quarantine period, chatted for a while, something like a short ice-breaking session. I figured it would be best to get to know at least their names and where they're from so that during the test, we would be able to have a pleasant group discussion.
Err, it was not that bad I guess. Our topic was regarding violence against women and the effective roles of curbing the problem. I was given the point 'Women themselves could play an effective role in curbing this problem.' During the first part, the individual presentation, I was a little blur and blank and nervous and excited. O___________O Mixed feelings hmm. I presented my two subpoints: Taking self-defense arts, and Knowing women's rights. I elaborated on those two, talking about the need to take up Tae-kwon-do or Karate to defend themselves against snatch thefts so that they would be more alert of their surroundings and reduce the chances of violence happening on them, and that women should be aware of their own rights and fight for them in order to protect themselves. The subpoints sounded err...strong but weak, and weak but strong. I felt I was not ready for the first part, considering I was the first speaker, Candidate A, and we were the first group of the day. (Thank goodness my housemates trained me to be Candidate A in our practice session...Love them lots! :3)
Then the second part: Group discussion. The other three points were about authorities, society and mass media. I agreed on society with my points that parents which are part of the society play an important role in the upbringing of their children. Education begins at home, and prevention is better than cure. In order to curb this problem, parents should educate their children not to mistreat women but to respect each and every one. I stressed a lot on parents though. My friend, Desmond, the one I knew through Lai Kit, my another friend, supported my opinion on the issue, with his own points that included authorities. The other two candidates, Yuri and Yen Shan( I think that's how you spell her name...) defended the point on women being the ones that can play the most effective role in curbing violence against women. However, I felt they were too soft-spoken; Yen Shan was close to speaking nothing and contributing very weak points of her own. Yuri did better than her though; she did provide some good points to support her opinion. At the end of the test, the chief examiner told me that I was dominating the group and that I should allow the others to speak. The problem was: I did prompt Yuri and Yen Shan to give more of their opinions and ideas in the discussion, but it seemed Yen Shan had not much to say, whereas for Yuri, I can see that she tried but couldn't come up with other reasonings to further support the women idea. Desmond, nah, he was doing great here, and I couldn't help but to silently applaud him for his calm and cool performance, unlike me, the dominant-ramble-on-crap-here-and-there-assertive speaker as though I'm expecting people to attack me or something.
Overall, it was quite pleasant, save the comment by the chief examiner about me being too dominant during the group discussion. Ugh...I didn't know whether it was a good thing or a bad one. I talked, but I talked too much I guess... = =
Hopefully, I can get high marks for this. *crosses fingers and prays silently in her heart*
I was with three other members in the same group, one whom I have known earlier from another friend of mine. The other two were new acquaintances; we just greeted each other good-naturedly during our quarantine period, chatted for a while, something like a short ice-breaking session. I figured it would be best to get to know at least their names and where they're from so that during the test, we would be able to have a pleasant group discussion.
Err, it was not that bad I guess. Our topic was regarding violence against women and the effective roles of curbing the problem. I was given the point 'Women themselves could play an effective role in curbing this problem.' During the first part, the individual presentation, I was a little blur and blank and nervous and excited. O___________O Mixed feelings hmm. I presented my two subpoints: Taking self-defense arts, and Knowing women's rights. I elaborated on those two, talking about the need to take up Tae-kwon-do or Karate to defend themselves against snatch thefts so that they would be more alert of their surroundings and reduce the chances of violence happening on them, and that women should be aware of their own rights and fight for them in order to protect themselves. The subpoints sounded err...strong but weak, and weak but strong. I felt I was not ready for the first part, considering I was the first speaker, Candidate A, and we were the first group of the day. (Thank goodness my housemates trained me to be Candidate A in our practice session...Love them lots! :3)
Then the second part: Group discussion. The other three points were about authorities, society and mass media. I agreed on society with my points that parents which are part of the society play an important role in the upbringing of their children. Education begins at home, and prevention is better than cure. In order to curb this problem, parents should educate their children not to mistreat women but to respect each and every one. I stressed a lot on parents though. My friend, Desmond, the one I knew through Lai Kit, my another friend, supported my opinion on the issue, with his own points that included authorities. The other two candidates, Yuri and Yen Shan( I think that's how you spell her name...) defended the point on women being the ones that can play the most effective role in curbing violence against women. However, I felt they were too soft-spoken; Yen Shan was close to speaking nothing and contributing very weak points of her own. Yuri did better than her though; she did provide some good points to support her opinion. At the end of the test, the chief examiner told me that I was dominating the group and that I should allow the others to speak. The problem was: I did prompt Yuri and Yen Shan to give more of their opinions and ideas in the discussion, but it seemed Yen Shan had not much to say, whereas for Yuri, I can see that she tried but couldn't come up with other reasonings to further support the women idea. Desmond, nah, he was doing great here, and I couldn't help but to silently applaud him for his calm and cool performance, unlike me, the dominant-ramble-on-crap-here-and-there-assertive speaker as though I'm expecting people to attack me or something.
Overall, it was quite pleasant, save the comment by the chief examiner about me being too dominant during the group discussion. Ugh...I didn't know whether it was a good thing or a bad one. I talked, but I talked too much I guess... = =
Hopefully, I can get high marks for this. *crosses fingers and prays silently in her heart*
Saturday, April 02, 2011
Am I sorta a perfectionist? I wonder...
Sometimes, I wonder if I think too much and end up making things sound even more complicated. Or is it because my expectation on things goes beyond the normal level?
I notice that I usually want whatever I do to be near perfect, be it a simple 5-minute presentation, mini sketch or in this case, the latest group assignment regarding programming. I feel terribly frustrated when I fail to make the programme run like how I want it to be. I continuously try to modify the coding, to better the programme, always seeking for ways to make it a good programme. And then, my group mates told me that well, since we are running out of time, we will just submit our latest coding as it is without further modification and that they think it is fine overall, minus a few cons, such as making a user enter a function number twice in order to get to the function menu.
Due to that, my mood darkens for the day. I dislike submitting something like this for our assignment. No doubt, the whole programme is good in the sense that we satisfy almost all of the required things to be included in our programme, but to me, it is not good enough. I want to further better the programme; I want to get high marks for this assignment. I mean, I look at this programme from a user's point of view. If you are the user, you wouldn't want to enter something twice just to get to the function that you wish for, no? That would be time-consuming; that would be an ineffective programme. Well, the enter-function-twice-thing is just one of the errors (okay, I regard this as an error, to which my group mates feel that it is something that is not really serious and therefore, not much of an error) in our programme; there are a few other things that make me think of the programme as unsatisfactory. Either it's just me, or...well, perhaps it's just me. I have a very high expectation on everything.
I don't know; I give up. I'm tired of this whole coding thing, and in the end, I have to comply with their suggestion of letting it be and submitting the work as it is. Time is running short, and we still couldn't figure out the correction for the programme, so what are we to do but to leave it like this? However, deep in my heart, I feel that if we put our mind to it and aim to correct the mistakes, there is a high chance for us to overcome the errors.
Oh well, end rant. Most of the time, I prefer to keep my emotions in me and complain inside my diary, but this time, I just feel like pouring out my dissatisfaction here.
Pardon me; I'm just venting my frustration here. Oh wait...I just realise this post contradicts with my previous post. Ugh. ==
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
I feel contented...
...with everything for now.
I wonder if it's too early for one to fell satisfied with things at such an age. Usually, most youths are never satisfied in their life: complaints regarding school work, rants about their lack of time for their to-do stuff; basically, they are always grumbling and whining about anything and everything. I have nothing against them for doing so; I mean, aww, come on...I'm sure everyone does that in some points of their life on Earth, including me as well. Except that I have this feeling of contentment in me nowadays, causing me to remain cheerful although I realise I have only about two weeks to complete my stressful Programming assignment...
Perhaps it is because I found myself a new way to stay happy: join a roleplaying site, post in the roleplays involved, lurk around in the site's spam section and 'ban' people at will. Oh boy, I couldn't help smiling at my computer screen when I read those funny comments posted by the members there. All my stressful and worrisome thoughts disappear as though they have never existed in my mind at all; those negative emotions have been replaced by positive and optimistic thoughts and feelings that I have acquired from writing and spamming on the site. Ah, one disadvantage though: I got addicted to it more than my addiction for Facebook. Hmm.
My feelings of satisfaction can never be comprehended by others, unless you have that sort of emotions too. The feelings of contentment, bringing me to look forward to each new day (not when I think about tsunamis and earthquakes and the nuclear meltdown in Japan though...>.<).
So yeah, I feel contented. End of rambling. Period. ( :
I wonder if it's too early for one to fell satisfied with things at such an age. Usually, most youths are never satisfied in their life: complaints regarding school work, rants about their lack of time for their to-do stuff; basically, they are always grumbling and whining about anything and everything. I have nothing against them for doing so; I mean, aww, come on...I'm sure everyone does that in some points of their life on Earth, including me as well. Except that I have this feeling of contentment in me nowadays, causing me to remain cheerful although I realise I have only about two weeks to complete my stressful Programming assignment...
Perhaps it is because I found myself a new way to stay happy: join a roleplaying site, post in the roleplays involved, lurk around in the site's spam section and 'ban' people at will. Oh boy, I couldn't help smiling at my computer screen when I read those funny comments posted by the members there. All my stressful and worrisome thoughts disappear as though they have never existed in my mind at all; those negative emotions have been replaced by positive and optimistic thoughts and feelings that I have acquired from writing and spamming on the site. Ah, one disadvantage though: I got addicted to it more than my addiction for Facebook. Hmm.
My feelings of satisfaction can never be comprehended by others, unless you have that sort of emotions too. The feelings of contentment, bringing me to look forward to each new day (not when I think about tsunamis and earthquakes and the nuclear meltdown in Japan though...>.<).
So yeah, I feel contented. End of rambling. Period. ( :
Saturday, January 29, 2011
New year, new semester...but where's the new resolution?
New year resolution...I have none.
Old habits and addictions are forever ongoing, unless I have come to a super strong decision to cease those from continuing and move forward with newfound will of getting important and necessary things done. And I know that I possess little willpower in putting tasks of less importance aside; the more I think of leaving them alone for good, the more my desire to do them grows. I end up abandoning the more important work instead.
Yes, I hereby admit that I'm terrible. Indisciplined. Irrational. Any bad adjective you can think of to describe me. GAH~
I remember telling myself during my second semester break that I would study hard enough to score in my final exam papers in my this third semester studying in UTAR. Sigh, it seemed I do not make any effort at all to do so. I can somehow predict my grades are going to drop drastically this semester, no doubt. I am such a failure bleh~
So here you go; a new year has arrived, a new semester has started but what about new resolution of mine? No, there is never one and there won't be one either. Even if I do have one, it won't survive for even a day before the resolution is crushed under the weight of old habits and die-hard addictions.
*solemn face* Rest in peace, dear new resolution. *beaming face* Welcome, old habits and die-hard addictions!
Old habits and addictions are forever ongoing, unless I have come to a super strong decision to cease those from continuing and move forward with newfound will of getting important and necessary things done. And I know that I possess little willpower in putting tasks of less importance aside; the more I think of leaving them alone for good, the more my desire to do them grows. I end up abandoning the more important work instead.
Yes, I hereby admit that I'm terrible. Indisciplined. Irrational. Any bad adjective you can think of to describe me. GAH~
I remember telling myself during my second semester break that I would study hard enough to score in my final exam papers in my this third semester studying in UTAR. Sigh, it seemed I do not make any effort at all to do so. I can somehow predict my grades are going to drop drastically this semester, no doubt. I am such a failure bleh~
So here you go; a new year has arrived, a new semester has started but what about new resolution of mine? No, there is never one and there won't be one either. Even if I do have one, it won't survive for even a day before the resolution is crushed under the weight of old habits and die-hard addictions.
*solemn face* Rest in peace, dear new resolution. *beaming face* Welcome, old habits and die-hard addictions!
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Merry Christmas everyone...
Though I wonder if it was really a merry one after all.
Christmas is just as normal as any other day to me every year. My family and I don't celebrate Christmas, and we never thought of joining in the celebration. Hence, my first statement.
Another reason is that...my final exam is approaching in two days' time. Instead of enjoying the event, I'm supposed to study hard for it. Well, I should be able to since I'm not celebrating the event but alas! I've got myself involved in something which I shouldn't at the moment: Roleplaying. Gah, wrong timing indeed!
Even as I'm typing this, my eyes are occasionally staring at the roleplaying site. = =
But then, I have not a slightest hint of regret, for I truly enjoy the roleplaying experience there. Not to forget, the roleplayers are funny bunch of people. Gosh, you should check the forum spam area. Reading what they posted seriously make me laugh, giggle, like mad. Also, I find that I am more confidence in my writing now compared to last time. Maybe because I write every day ever since I've joined the sites? o.O
Everything has it's pros and cons; and the setback for joining the roleplaying community is I tend to roleplay to the point of abandoning my revision for the upcoming exam. I know, I know, it's my fault. For being not persistent enough to finish revising but go according to my whim to indulge in roleplays. T.T
Oh well, enough talk. Jonie's brain screamed at her, "GET YOUR BUTT AWAY FROM THAT ROLEPLAYING SITE AND GO STUDY NOW, YOU GREAT REVISION PROCRASTINATOR!"
Aye, Jonie Brain. *eyes still glued to the mentioned site*
XD
Christmas is just as normal as any other day to me every year. My family and I don't celebrate Christmas, and we never thought of joining in the celebration. Hence, my first statement.
Another reason is that...my final exam is approaching in two days' time. Instead of enjoying the event, I'm supposed to study hard for it. Well, I should be able to since I'm not celebrating the event but alas! I've got myself involved in something which I shouldn't at the moment: Roleplaying. Gah, wrong timing indeed!
Even as I'm typing this, my eyes are occasionally staring at the roleplaying site. = =
But then, I have not a slightest hint of regret, for I truly enjoy the roleplaying experience there. Not to forget, the roleplayers are funny bunch of people. Gosh, you should check the forum spam area. Reading what they posted seriously make me laugh, giggle,
Everything has it's pros and cons; and the setback for joining the roleplaying community is I tend to roleplay to the point of abandoning my revision for the upcoming exam. I know, I know, it's my fault. For being not persistent enough to finish revising but go according to my whim to indulge in roleplays. T.T
Oh well, enough talk. Jonie's brain screamed at her, "GET YOUR BUTT AWAY FROM THAT ROLEPLAYING SITE AND GO STUDY NOW, YOU GREAT REVISION PROCRASTINATOR!"
Aye, Jonie Brain. *eyes still glued to the mentioned site*
XD
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