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Lately,
I got very frustrated and annoyed by someone whom I've barely known of
his background, and this is mainly due to my stupidity.
It
all started when I received a private message by an unknown person here
on Fanbox, an African guy. Curious, I clicked on it and read just to
know that he was searching for a friend who might likely develop into
his potential partner. I replied, saying that I can't become someone
like this; at the very most, just as an online friend, no more than
that. Mistake One: I replied to an unknown online stranger's message.
The next day, he said it was okay and that he was looking forward to our
friendship. He gave a little introduction about himself: 30 something
years old, a person doing some small business, and asked me to do the
same. Despite feeling wary of this, I did gave my name as seen on
Fanbox, general intro like I'm a student, thinking that this might not
bring much harm. Then, he began to give me his IM address, asking me to
add him. I didn't though, but instead, I left him mine. Mistake Two: I
continued to reply to his private message. Mistake Three: I gave him my
MSN address.
Of
course, the consequences are mine to bear. At first, it seemed fine and
normal when we chatted. However, things became irritating when he began
to send me offline chat messages every single day, asking "Hey dear how
are you today?", "please reply me soon" and "I miss you", without miss.
Hello, it's not as if I'm your girlfriend kay, mister. Stop calling me
"dear" as though we've known each other for long. We're not even close
to each other at all. Upon my friend's advice, I quickly deleted his
contact. Unfortunately, as I'm using the latest Windows Live Messenger, I
couldn't block him from sending me daily offline messages, even more so
when his IM address is from an external provider. And now, I'm stuck
with receiving daily repetitive messages from him until he decides to
give up.
In
conclusion: NEVER EVER TALK TO STRANGERS. Little did I realise that
this advice does not only apply to the strangers you meet face-to-face,
but also the unknown people you come across online. Most importantly,
NEVER EVER DIVULGE YOUR PERSONAL INFO TO THEM. You'll never know what
they might do with those info in their grasps.
Hopefully,
none of you will repeat my mistakes. It's never pleasant to have such
chat messages bothering you every day, not unless you are talking to
your special, loved ones. But then, that African guy is definitely not
my cup of coffee. But ugh...I cannot believe I am actually this naive to
even think of making online friends like that. >.>
I
have never ever expected myself to get a minor bone fracture and ended
up having to behave as though I have been born with only a single upper
limb.
Just
yesterday, I was perfectly fine. Things were going normal for me, just
the usual university life. Not until a bicycle rammed into mine,
throwing me down on the road at a roundabout, and in the process, part
of that guy's bicycle hit my left shoulder. I was seriously in deep
pain, and I had to cycle back home single-handedly, my left arm dangling
at the side, while I told myself to withstand the pain for a little
while. As soon as I reached home, I quickly called for a taxi and went
to the clinic, only to find that my clavicle was suffering from a crack.
Thankfully, it was not dislocated, not a serious injury, but deep
inside, I felt so down. The doctor assured me that my bone will be back
to normal in two weeks time, but at the moment, I would have to make do
with an armsling. The problem is, this is no ordinary armsling. As I
have zero knowledge on putting up an armsling back myself should I
remove it, the medical officers decided to tape my left arm using some
flexible cloth bandages to my body to prevent my hand from moving, which
will disrupt the bone healing process. Now, I am like a partial living
mummy, with part of my body wrapped with the bandages, leaving only my
right hand to perform my daily activities. And let me tell you, it is
really uncomfortable. You can't sleep the way you use to, you can't
shower like normal, and you can't dress like you usually do. It is like
being temporarily handicapped.
Despite
the disadvantages in such a condition, I tell myself to look at the
brighter side. Due to this, I began to understand how it feels to be a handicapped
person. You can't do stuff like how a normal person could do, unless
you have had years of practice, and that takes time. As for me, I have
trouble tying up my hair with only a hand (still trying though ahaha~),
and I have to stay this way for two weeks. Then I realise, I shouldn't
be whiny or moody about this, but I should face this little obstacle
with a smile and drive away frowns with cheerful expressions. What is
the point of being so down about this when others actually suffer more
than you, except they only keep their pains to themselves, enduring
their problems with hopes of a better tomorrow? No, I tell myself that I
should be optimistic in life, and learn to accept unfavourable
situations bravely and realisticly.
I
find it amusing that most people who are healthy usually possess
pessimistic thinkings, whining about their trivial problems, feeling
like it's the end of the world when they have just broke up with their
boyfriends or girlfriends, whereas those who are suffering from a
certain disease or almost nearing death usually keeps an optimistic view
in life, being cheerful despite their sick conditions, facing their
troubles with much courage than an ordinary person could and would show.
Isn't that weird? Hmm, perhaps people would never learn to appreciate
the things they have, not unless they are at the verge of losing them or
have already lost them. I realise that people, including me as well,
usually take things for granted. I am trying to change that part of me,
but it'll take time of course. The important thing is that I try eh? (:
Oh well, a toast to my bone's speedy recovery! Yeah! :D
I feel that most of us need to learn to have consideration for others.
In
my daily encounters, there are definitely incidents where people are
always thinking of themselves, acting all selfish and whatnot,
especially on the road. Just a few days ago, a group of students, all
girls, were taking their own sweet time crossing the road, a junction to
be exact, while there were two oncoming cars wanting to cross at the
junction. I was riding my bicycle, wanting to cross the junction too,
but ugh...those girls were chatting and smiling, slowly walking while we
were all waiting for them to cross. I wonder why they can't walk a bit
faster and think about others who are waiting on them. Just because we
notice them and won't ever try to knock them down, that doesn't mean
they can do whatever they like, as though they own the road. Can't they
just be more considerate towards others?
Sometimes,
I just feel...sad, disappointed even. This is not because of my own
personal matters, but due to behaviours and attitudes of people today
that are no longer taking others into consideration in whatever they do.
Too self-centred, I would say. And I put the blame on the parents
themselves. I do believe a child's brought-up very much determines the
child's way of doing things. Unfortunately, it seems that most parents
are not good role models for their children these days, hence the
decline in the number of considerate people. What the world is coming to
nowadays...looks like this is going to be my favourite quote for the
time being.
You
might say, "Heh, you talk like you are an angel or something. Are you
actually a considerate person yourself?" Well, not that I want to brag
how good I am here, but I do practise having consideration for others. I
always remind myself that I don't block people's way when I walk. I
always try to make sure and constantly remind myself that I don't make
others suffer because of my selfish actions. I admit I may not be
totally considerate but at least, I tried. The problem is, many do not
care enough to think if their actions would make other's situation
difficult.
How much does it take to just consider about others for a while? I wonder...
I
come to love thinking from different perspectives and think about what
others' reactions might be most of the time. If I'm feeling happy, what
would other people feel? When I'm sad, what about others? When I face a
particular situation, I would act this way, but what about others? Would
they have taken the same path as I do, or do they have a better
solution to solve the problem at hand? What if I view things from
another viewpoint altogether?
I
feel that it's good to explore about other points of view in order to
come to a good conclusion on things. At times, when you get yourself
into a bad, unfortunate condition, you might be cursing and wondering
why that has to happen onto you and not others. Why, of all times when I am in such a good mood? Why, of all times, when I have something important to do? Why? If
you were to take a step back and look at your situation from a
different angle, you would then realise that things are not as bad as
what you first think it to be. No doubt, it may be an unpleasant
happening, but others might have gone through an even worse situation
compared to yours, and they are able to face it without much grumbling
and complaints about their bad luck.
I've
actually gone through a few bad incidents myself, and I realise that my
only reaction would be getting upset and wondering why of all people,
that would have to befall me. Slowly, after some time pondering about
the matter, it finally hits me that I have been self-centred, expecting
only the good things to happen to me, which is actually quite impossible
in the world. Upon my realisation, I now learn to accept things as it
is with a more optimistic outlook.
No matter how terrible a situation may seem, things would work out one way or another. (:
I
come to love thinking from different perspectives and think about what
others' reactions might be most of the time. If I'm feeling happy, what
would other people feel? When I'm sad, what about others? When I face a
particular situation, I would act this way, but what about others? Would
they have taken the same path as I do, or do they have a better
solution to solve the problem at hand? What if I view things from
another viewpoint altogether?
I
feel that it's good to explore about other points of view in order to
come to a good conclusion on things. At times, when you get yourself
into a bad, unfortunate condition, you might be cursing and wondering
why that has to happen onto you and not others. Why, of all times when I am in such a good mood? Why, of all times, when I have something important to do? Why? If
you were to take a step back and look at your situation from a
different angle, you would then realise that things are not as bad as
what you first think it to be. No doubt, it may be an unpleasant
happening, but others might have gone through an even worse situation
compared to yours, and they are able to face it without much grumbling
and complaints about their bad luck.
I've
actually gone through a few bad incidents myself, and I realise that my
only reaction would be getting upset and wondering why of all people,
that would have to befall me. Slowly, after some time pondering about
the matter, it finally hits me that I have been self-centred, expecting
only the good things to happen to me, which is actually quite impossible
in the world. Upon my realisation, I now learn to accept things as it
is with a more optimistic outlook.
No matter how terrible a situation may seem, things would work out one way or another. (:
Willpower... something which I am seriously lacking of.
It
seems that lots of people do not possess strong willpower nowadays. I
know I am one, that I do not deny. And I know full well that the absence
of strength in willing oneself to carry out important matters actually
affect our life in some ways.
My
studies, for instance. Ever since I was introduced to an activity
called play-by-post roleplaying, which I believe I had mentioned it in
one of my earlier posts, I became...addicted to it, even up till now.
The first thing that comes to my mind every morning is roleplay,
roleplay, roleplay. The new hobby becomes my main priority instead of
studies.
The
ironic thing is, I know and understand the dire consequences should I
continue placing roleplaying as a must-do activity rather than studying
and revising lessons, but still, regardless of that, my heart chooses to
ignore the warning of a possible drop in my grades. Logic dutifully
reminds me about the effect every day, but Desire gets the best of me
and I end up listening to my heart than my mind.
I'm sure that those who are not in my situation would snort and
call this as silly. "Come on, you know what would happen if you
continue to do so but you still want to do it? What nonsense!" One may
comment so. However, it is always the case, where one outside of a
situation would be able to see clearly and calculate the pros and cons
of decisions, but when you are the one in the situation, it is difficult
to make the correct and best choice, just like a game of chess.
After
putting some thought into my own reckless behaviour (not that it is
entirely bad for me to roleplay a lot; it actually helps to improve my
writing, except that I am too focused on that hobby of mine until my
studies are more than often neglected), I finally arrive to the root
cause of my problem: I lack willpower. Why so? It's because if I have
strong willpower, I would not easily give in to my desire to roleplay
all the time but persist in managing my time efficiently mainly for
studying, only allocating some time for roleplaying. If I have strong
willpower, I would not be here, blabbing so much about not studying and
whatnots.
My
point is, it is important for us to have strong willpower. This does
not just apply to me alone (yeah, I know I have almost zero willpower,
thank you), but to people from all walks of life. "Why?" you may ask.
What is so important about willpower?
With
willpower, one would be able to persist on, become optimistic, and
manage to get things done in life. Oh, just take a look at me: I did
quite badly for my final exam papers because I spent most of my time
doing other stuff (watching animes and roleplaying ==) and only flipped
through my notes last minute, despite knowing that I should study two
three weeks ago. Due to my lack of willpower, I did not push myself to
study hard for the exam but I allow myself too much leniency to do the
things I like at the wrong time. And despite knowing so, I did not
bother to will myself to do the correct thing. That was because of the
word willpower. I have close to none.
With
willpower, no matter how tough a situation you face, how difficult
things may go, how impossible a dream may seem to be, one would still
work on to solve the matter at hand.
With
willpower, comes perseverance. And perseverance is one vital key that
would also take you far ahead in your journeys in life.
Well,
this entire post may sound like some kind of rambling from an average
kid who has yet to experience the real world but then, I am one who
deliberates on human attitudes and behaviours, and life itself.
By
the way, I was just exaggerating on my extreme lack of willpower. You
don't believe me? *frowns* Do you think I would post this if I have
close-to-zero willpower, dear reader? *smiles victoriously* There, you
get the point.
Now, tell yourself every day that "I must have strong willpower!"! :)
It's always so nice to waste...time.
How
ironic, considering that I'm supposed to make full use of my time to
study well for my upcoming finals. Instead, I've been lazing around, or
rather, too attached to my computer, typing out posts for roleplays, my
new hobby. Sigh. Newfound addictions at wrong times are just terrible,
disastrous, distracting,....
And
so, I've relived my love for writing at inappropriate moments once
again. What to do, the urge to write is there and I can't seem to stop
it. Urge is far stronger than Logic, so my reasonings lost to my writing
desires. Huh.
I
can't figure out the reason why my writing cravings call forth
themselves when I am about to sit for my exams. Hmm...is it because part
of me had wanted to escape from reality and live in fantasy? It could
be possible.
I
have always love things to do with fantasy. Books, movies, and now
roleplays. Things that might be associated with wizardry, medieval
settings, magic and spells, elves, goblins, fairies, dragons, swords,
quests, fairy tales, anything out-worldly, unrealistic and not
down-to-earth. Imagine if you are in that kind of world. Whoa, things
are sure interesting, compared to this mundane world, where things are
too practical. Sometimes, it can become too realistic for words that you
feel like vanishing from this world and appear anywhere other than
there.
Which
is why things are made to be balanced in this world. Where you have
reality at one hand, you also have fantasy on the other. Reality as in
worrying about studies, family, money and relationship problems, and
fantasy as in being absorbed into writing and reading fictions, watching fantasy
movies and daydreaming. All the while, we have been going in and out of
those two worlds unconsciously. Well, at least that's what I think.
Given
a choice, I would rather live in fantasy; where dragons roam the lands;
the prince ventures out to rescue his beloved princess; magics and
spells are common practices; swords, bow and arrows are usual sights;
warriors, swordsmen, knights in shining armour, royalties, wizards, magi
and other fantasy races are present in the world. Ah, life would be
extremely interesting then! I shall have my own dragon, a sword which
only I could wield -no- I would rather own a bow and some fine arrows,
and...*rants on*
Sigh.
See? This is how my time and brain efforts are wasted over thinking
such impossible matters, something unrealistic in this oh-so-realistic
world. Fine, I guess I have to return back to reality and continue my
preparation for my finals. T.T
Seriously, I wish I could live in fantasy and learn magics and.....*rambles on again*
